Today…
August 7, 2008
I really don’t know how or where I will start this blog thing, but I thought it mabe a good way to vent,rant,chatter,spill…..So we start with Today, later I will go over Yesterday, and when I am ready I will look at Tomorrow. Do you sometimes think your life is like a movie…you are the star character but you have no control?
Well today is better than yesterday, yesterday was day six of chemo and my home help was here we were chatting enjoying a little spring sunshine and she made mention of seeing me in the local paper last week ( my company sponsored employee of the year 2007 ) at the business awards and the awards photos were being run again for the build up of the 2008 awards. She was interested in who I was before this happened again, whilst we were talking and I was filling in the blanks for her she made a reference to some of the mosacicing around my garden – it was then that I swallowed my tears looked at myself front on and had the realisation that I have been completed reinvented. I am still Debz, but so much has changed, I will look at the history of how I got here later on. So I took my self off to my bedroom where I having been making a memory box for my son, I realised then that even though I had been telling everyone that I was only tiding up Mitchell’s certificates, photos, memetoes etc I was in fact cleaning up! I don’t want anything to happen to me and noone be albe to find anything, I have collected so many things since he has been born that I couldn’t bear that they weren’t all in one place for him.